so this weekend after Lauren's fill in the blanks friday, i decided i was in need of a movie date. i finally sat down and watched "Julie & Julia," a movie my Momma had sent to me because she said it reminded her so much of me.
for instance, she said she understood my blog better. She was always in awe of the beautiful gifts i would get from otherwise perfect strangers around the world. My momma is so cute, she would even look for things that i could give as gifts. For instance when i was home for my birthday, she gave me a bunch of vintage buttons she had in her sewing bins to give to you darling readers. (remember the cute white rabbit buttons for le giveaway? from my Mom.)
it's a curious thing sometimes blogging isn't it? When Julie gets in a fight with her husband about "letting down her readers" and he gets angry that she spends so much time blogging- that, i get. Sometimes Max gets a little frustrated with me when i've worked all day and i want to go online and read your little corners of the internet. It makes me happy. Sometimes, i worry that i will "let down" my readers by not commenting enough or posting anything interesting.
it's a curious thing sometimes blogging isn't it? sometimes that pressure to live up to all these other great blogs or the pressure just to keep up with it all. I try never to get to that point, because this is joy to me... but the truth is, even when i remember back to when i was so very excited to have 20 readers-- it might still hurt when i see one or two readers decide to not follow me anymore. And then i remember that quantity is not important- this isn't a popularity contest though sometimes it feels that way doesn't it? For me, i am happy to have loyal readers. No, not even "readers"... I'm lucky to say that these otherwise perfect strangers are sincere friends to me.
so please know that if i don't comment on your posts as much as i'd like-- it's exactly that: "as much as i'd like." (If i could ever get paid for blogging, oh it would be a dream come true) I'm still here, your Micaela... ever so thankful to know you. x
P.S. i have a giveaway planned for this week. Another small thank-you for you dear readers, for always sticking around.