Wednesday, June 23, 2010

take me back to the start.

"Remember, Remember, this is now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it.

I want to become acutely aware of all I've taken for granted."

-Sylvia Plath


it's late. and i can't sleep because all i can do is miss you and remember...

all the little things i took for granted.

like our carefree afternoons we spent together every day nearly 3 years ago. (below : you're biting my stockinged knee and i took a photograph to remember)

the way you used to look at me.



oh God, what have i done...

i wish i could wake up back in 2008 and do it all differently.
we might have even been married by now with our m&ms.
you might have always looked at me in that unguarded way.

i might have made you proud.

made you 100% happy.
instead of telling you 100 and 100% i am SORRY.


I always felt the beauty of this cover was the last part... how she made "take me back" sound like a plea. It is my plea tonight. It is my plea every day.

16 comments:

Megan said...

Thinking of you!

Claire Kiefer said...

I can't sleep either and my heart is with you sweet Micaela and I hope Max reads this and feels as moved as I do.

Sara said...

I'll pray for you. Please feel better

Cynthia said...

I read somewhere that "in the end everything will work out, if its not working out, its NOT the end"
I'm so sorry that things aren't going as planned but trust that God has it all figured out, he'll take care of you and mend your relationship w/ max!

hugs

Phoenix Peacock said...

hugs and kisses darling.

erin elder said...

Hugs to you Micaela...

Laurnie said...

What a great cover, thanks for sharing it

Erin said...

Don't even know what else to say. Just that I'm thinking of you and sending you hugs. Don't give up hope, and don't beat yourself up. What's done is done, and you have to keep looking ahead, and up! I really believe it will all be okay.

oxoxo love E

Risti Megan said...

We all make mistakes. Remember: don't be too hard on yourself. You're a good person and I know everything will work out in the end.

Marisa said...

this post just made me cry bestie... you always write with complete abandonment. i love you

Marisa said...

this post just made me cry bestie. you always write with complete abandonment. i love you.

Kara said...

Mmmmm. That performance was so beautiful.

Thinking happy thoughts for you <3

carmar76 said...

*HUGS*

Laura Loo said...

gorgeous lovely! she sounds great. i love the rendition. intense.
you keep strong!

Well Nice Chels said...

I agree with the above statement, about how its not the end because things aren't worked out. Just keep being you Miceala, mistakes and all. Thats what life is all about. Besos dear!

JenRem said...

Uh oh, did something happen my sister? I love you and wish you nothing but the best.

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