hello my sweetest friends. I know it's been forever and i'm sorry it has been... i have immersed myself in books and films (woody allen, oh he's the secret to forgetting for a few hours).
but there is no real comfort like home is there?
that in tears i can call my momma and she doesn't even ask me why i'm crying, only hears that i am and lets me know that everything will be fine.
it's what i need. My momma. Her comfort.
and so tomorrow i will pack a suitcase for a flight on thursday that will take me to my beloved Texas for a few weeks... to heal and to laugh with my family and friends again. To continue on this journey of forgiving myself, and to give my darling the space he needs.
that last part? hurts my heart more than i can tell you, and yet i understand why.
we had planned to go to Texas in July when my family will be in town (including my darling nieces and nephew from Italy & Germany-- i can't wait to feel their hugs!!!) but i will be just going earlier than planned and pray with all my heart that he decides to meet me there.
that is the latest my lovies. (oh, and i quit my job... there's that)
I promise to try and get back to "regular" postings soon, so thank-you for being so understanding and supportive. While i'm home, i fully intend on catching up on all of your lives! i've missed you.
As upside down as my life is right now, know that i'm never without hope. Never. & there's so much i'm already doing to better myself that i'm excited about... like running more often; finding a job that doesn't make me miserable and helps others; read more; shop less... little things.
and not so little things, but that's between me and my future husband, whoever he is.
(i hope i already know who "he" is)
i can tell you one thing i do know for sure... i can't wait to hug my twinkie!