..."Then came the most difficult part.
"Show me your shame," I asked my mind. Dear God, the horrors I saw then. A pitiful parade of all my failings, my lies, my selfishness, jealousy, arrogance. I didn't blink from any of it, though. "Show me your worst," I said. When I tried to invite these units of shame into my heart, they hesitated at the door, saying, "No-- you don't want me in there... don't you know what I did?" and I would say, "I do want you. Even you. I do. Even you are welcome here. It's OK. You are forgiven. You are part of me. You can rest now. It's over."
When all this was finished, I was empty....
I looked into my heart, at my own goodness, and I saw its capacity. I saw that my heart was not even nearly full, not even having taken in and tended o these calamitous urchins of sorrow and anger and shame; my heart could easily have received and forgiven even more. Its love was infinite..."
i finished "Eat Pray Love" a few days ago and i instantly panicked. This book had changed me and now what?
i felt stronger, empowered where i was broken but this is only inside myself. How can i show that to the man i love? the man who (unblamingly) is trying to decide if i'm worth the pain, anger, shame i have caused him.
i'm terrified of his answer because i have never wanted anything more in my life than him.