Tuesday, March 16, 2010

HEARTBREAK WARFARE.

this is my little world.
my blog to share my heart.

i've never been shy to express raw emotion on here before.

i've had to moderate my comments {which i've never wanted to do} because someone left something personal in my comment section but were too pathetic to say who they really were.

hurt confusion is all i feel for you, whoever you are.

and yes i realize that this is open to the entire world if they stumble upon this little corner of the internet of mine {and if you're new here, i am so glad you found me} but i don't care for cruel intentions.

but because i want this blog to be my heart on my sleeve... this song i can't get enough of.

"Lightning strikes

Inside, my chest to keep me up at night

Dream of ways

To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air

Bombs are falling everywhere

It's heartbreak warfare

Once you want it to begin,

No one really ever wins

In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love,why don't you say so?

Drop his name

Push it in and twist the knife again

Watch my face

As I pretend to feel no pain

How come the only way to know how high you get me

is to see how far I fall

God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me

but I can't break through at all.

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight

Let's just fix this whole thing now

I swear to God we're gonna get it right

If you lay your weapon down

Red wine and ambien

You're talking shit again, it's heartbreak warfare

Good to know it's all a game

Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak, heartbreak."




so to you, whoever you are... please leave me alone.

and to you lovies, dearest friends, i am so thankful for your comments which make me smile. And i apologize for this post.

to you Max... I'll be home soon and hopefully, you'll be happy to see me. I pray you are.

I love you, you know.

49 comments:

Britti said...

i just wanted to say i really like your blog! :)
have a happy week!

J. said...

you know this leaves me curious as to what happened...
some people honestly get joy from being dicks. plain and simple. I'm proud of you for continuing to be the honest and open person you are.
Love you, dear.

Summer {Bisfor...} said...

you, my dear, deserve only love from your readers. i am sorry that someone left a hurtful comment. guess what? People love you. you have the biggest heart and that person is just lost.

lindsey said...

<3 how terrible! i don't know what was said, but you're the greatest! xo

pooftacular said...

Today is Tuesday :)

I just stumbled here and wanted to say Hello :)

Just Be.

=D

Karleen said...

I stumbled upon you blog a while ago and I love it!

Mean people suck! You rock!

kitchendoor said...

Somebody was nasty to you in comments? I'll eff them up. Seriously, I will. I'm small, but I've got a lot of scrap.

<3.

JenRem said...

Oh darling I'm sorry to hear about the evil person who left mean things on your site. No one deserves that - ESPECIALLY YOU! I don't even understand why anyone would ever even say anything mean to you. I think you're the sweetest most nice, caring and honest gal in this world. :) Love you lady <3

Meg Fee said...

oh my dear, my heart breaks for you that there are such hurtful people in the world and that they would direct their own pain towards you. people can be crummy, really they can.

you're amazing and worthy of so much love and i can't imagine max wouldn't be happy to see you.

love, love to you!

Camilla Leila said...

you are a beautiful, happy, positive person who adds so much to the world.

forget that person who is drowning in their own negative energy.

and just smile and realize that you are loved by so many.
xoxo

Erin said...

Good for you, M. Stand up for yourself and continue to be the delight that you are... open, honest, heartfelt, beautiful... Of course Max will be happy to have you home.

I feel really angry right now. Whoever you are, picking on my sweet friend Micaela, piss off!!!

Michely Medeiros. said...

i love your blog and your words!!! your an amazing person :)
im sorry someone had to go and be nasty.

xo,
mily

Marisa said...

m - i seriously couldn't sleep last night after your call. I am just sick that there are people out there who feel it is their place to put others down and in a public format no less.
you know i love you always bestie..

ps I LOVE this song and have been listening to it over and over since this cd came out...PERFECT lyrics.

Sandra said...

That person must be a very sad individual to take their time to comment something hurtful on your blog.

You are awesome and one of the most wonderful people I've ever met. Clearly that person doesn't know you and has issues of their own if they feel the need to take their anger out on you.

I'm sorry that person's comment hurt you. You are incredible, miss. You give nothing but love, and you deserve nothing but love.

Um, so suck it, anonymous commenter. Micaela is twice the man you'll ever be. And twice as awesome. X) heehee

love you, sis.
:)

Phoenix Peacock said...

I'm with Kitchendoor. Seriously. lots of love to you my dear. Nameless individuals are not to be feared - they are already ashamed if they do not share their identity!

Sanja said...

sick people are always there trying to hurt us but they CANNOT do it... head up, mickey;)

shelly said...

ugh! how AWFUL! i cannot imagine who would do such a thing but i would not waste another precious minute thinking about it :) have a safe trip home :)

Connie said...

I'm so sorry someone was mean to you! You do not deserve that! Just remember to consider the source. It's only a nasty person who would leave a nasty comment..and nasty people are not worth one second of our time...their comments mean nothing. Karma will take care of them.((huge hug))

missy. said...

i understand. why do you think mine is comment moderation? some people just ruin it for everyone.

Carolyn said...

You are one of the kindest nicest people I have ever had the opportunity to meet. I am glad to see you are taking positive action against this person and not allowing them the power to get you down. Get home safe. Big Hugs!! xoxo Carolyn

Jaimie said...

I'm sorry sweetie. Some time we have those people who think they can ruin a person's happiness. I love this song too by the way. Love it. And I love you. I wish I could have seen you before you left Texas. You have my number. Please don't be a stranger to me. Have a safe trip my love!

Maddy said...

Yikes, it's so sad that you're like, a grown woman with a fiance and all and people are still acting like we're in high school! Oh well, keep your head up, you're beautiful and you have so much going for you and cold hearted people are just trying to bring you down (on the internet none the less! the worst place to do so!)

Chic 'n Cheap Living said...

Grrr, I turned on moderation after some haters left really mean comments.

Know that you have a heart of golf and unfortunately there are freaks out there.

*Hugs*

Megan said...

I cant believe that happened! Some people are just so low.Micaela I adore your blog i never miss a post, just remember all of your readers out there who love your blog and wouldnt want it any other way.

Gabby said...

It makes me angry and sad that someone would be cruel to you. You have the kindest heart. And I will cut a bitch for you, if needed! :) xo

ps. the word verification is "shank". No joke. hhahahahaha!

tiffany said...

I looove your blog and you dont deserve that at all! Hold your head high, you have so many people that adore your blog :)

Cassie said...

Oh Micaela so sad to read that this happened.

They are just a 'blog-troll' and will go away and live back under their bridge again soon.

Well done you for having the balls to say 'screw you'!
xx

Emilie Lynne said...

:( This is so disappointing. I can't imagine the type of person who finds joy in making others miserable... It is horrible! I <3 you Micaela, and you know everyone else does too. Whoever said that crap is just jealous of how much we all adore you! :)

danielle and dinosaur toes said...

Well that just sucks. I got my first ever rude comment the other week from someone who (obviously) kept their identity hidden. It's no fun, but there are always going to be people who are jealous or just miserable and that's how they act. Keep on being you, we all love you bunches and bunches!

xo big time!

Risti Megan said...

Well, whatever happened, I'm just glad that there are people like you putting beautiful things out into the world. I hope you had a wonderful time in Texas!

Sarah C said...

Grrrr... it makes me so upset that some people choose to use a chance to be 'anonymous' as a reason to be rude and hurtful... i am so sorry you had hateful words directed at you and your wonderful blog. know you are loved dearly by countless ladies in the blogging world - me included!!

jackiek said...

awww i'm sorry someone left a hurtful comment! we all love you! {and your blog :)}

Brown Girl said...

I'm sorry you had to endure a hateful comment from someone. I love you and your blog. Don't let someone's ugliness get you down.

The Socialite said...

WHAT?! Someone is messing with my Mickey?!

Oh finger snaps in the air!

Jealousy and insecurities force people to hide behind bad manners.

We love you! Keep blogging on'

Raquel said...

I've never heard the song but I can totally relate to the lyrics. Crazy how a song can mean something completely different to someone else yet mean the exact same thing. That made no sense but I hope you got it.

Don't let an anonymous douchebag get you down. You're a peach!

Faiza said...

hey m,

there is a way to disable anonymous comments on your blog. i've seen it on other blogs. i know that doesn't take away the hurt confusion so i send you a hug as well.

keep writing,

f

Jen said...

Love you! Who cares about the haters. You are so beautiful, and I heart this song too.

Rhianne said...

seriously micaela?! Who on earth would want to upset you? bah to them.

Even though we've never met I would love to think that we're friends and I just wanted to say you've had a huge, positive impact on my life and I hope that my comment can help to balance out the negative one. sending love your way x

p.s. I love that other people are just as angry for you as I am :) is that bad..?

Claudia said...

I love you, your blog and your positive attitude! keep it up! Much love!

JMay said...

I think the person that would do that is just jealous of you & unhappy in life...seriously.

It's flattery if you think about it...they are taking the time out of their lives to comment.

heisschic said...

in the words of my mother, "they're just jealous!"




turds.


you. are. amazing.

Marian said...

Awww pretty lady, don't let that punk ass get you down. Whoever wrote anything negative doesn't know a thing. We love you and thats all that matters:)

Katie said...

WHAT!?!? who would say ANYTHING mean about/to you!?!? WRONG i tell you, just WRONG!!! you, my dear, are a doll and don't you worry about the meanies out there!!!

jozen said...

what?!?! how rude.

no one deserves that especially you.

hi, i'm jodie. said...

john mayer is god.
i love your blog :)

Anna said...

oh micaela! i can't believe someone would leave you a nasty comment! you're such a kind, warm person! i love reading all about your adventures!

Lindsay said...

I love your blog! This post made my heart hurt a little because someone just did this same thing to me, but only on Facebook!!! It was so hurtful and unnecessary! I wish people could all love and respect each other!

Brandi said...

Aww, Micaela, I'm so sorry to hear that a situation arose that you need to do that. Big hug. You're fantastic.

Melissa A. @ Design Delights said...

This is a shame. I can't believe someone would treat you like that. You are too sweet and I can't imagine anything that anyone would want to say to hurt you. They obviously don't know you and need to take their attitude elsewhere.

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