so this is my facebook profile pic and my husband-to-be just commented, "Pretty soon! I'm excited, Mrs. Maxham!"
i could not stop smiling! He is my life's greatest blessing.
having the day off, i felt creative and sat at my thrifted school desk replying to your love letters. i was writing back to a dear friend who shared her past toxic relationship and of course, inevitably, it brought back memories of my past demons. Toxic is a good word for said relationship.
my heart is free of my past. for awhile it has been and finally.
it has been a long road getting here but i am exactly where i was meant to be. I am lucky to be here, right now in my present with such a beautiful heart to share it with.
it reminded me of what Elizabeth Gilbert wrote in the book that changed my life:
"The philosopher Sufi said that God drew a circle around the exact spot you are standing on. I was never not going to be here. This was never not going to happen."
i was never not going to follow my heart to Virginia to be with my future husband.
It puts all the struggles, tears, even our personal heartaches into perfect perspective.
i was never not going to be with this man for the rest of my life.
(a huge thank-you to Sandra for my pink sash)