Wednesday, December 30, 2009

packing up my life...

to start my future. my new adventure, the next chapter in mine & darling friend's life.

it feels strange packing up our first house together. we loved this house. i bought this customized print to frame in our new house, to remember our beginning.

January 9th would have been our one year at Casa di M. i still have the card Max wrote me, when we signed our lease.

we were both so excited and yet very scared.
i'm feeling that same way right now, as i start to pack.

don't get me wrong, of course, i'm thrilled to be with my technical husband (remember how long away it all seemed when he left months ago?) but as i pack, it's slowly hitting me what a HUGE change this is.

I will leave half my heart behind with my twinkie who i can't imagine being without. We've never been apart, and i've never been away from home. I am SO close to my family, especially twinkie. I worry more for her than me (i'm the older twin by 5 minutes so as the older seester i'm constantly worried about her).

i know people do this every day and i know a thousand miles won't change our bond, but it's heartbreaking to think i can't just hop in my car and drive a few streets down to her house.

i love you twinkie, and we will both be okay. i just know it. we will only be a plane ride away and always a daily phone call (or two, or ten). i love you!


oh it's going to be a tough last few days in my beloved texas....

but my beloved is waiting for me.


and so with even sad eyes and a heavy heart to leave behind all i've ever known, i'm reminded of this quote once shared by our dear Meg Fee:

"Pitiful is the person who is afraid of taking risks. Perhaps this person will never be disappointed or disillusioned; perhaps she won't suffer the way people do when they have a dream to follow. But when the person looks back--she will hear her heart."

-Paulo Coelho


(pic yvetteinufio etsy)

29 comments:

eQ said...

When I moved to NYC from Seattle 3 years ago I was just as scared and worried. It was hard. It took a long time for me to feel "at home" in the new city. But it did happen over time.

Let yourself feel the ups and downs of this big change, it's ok, you will make it through! Congrats on the big move.

Packing is a pain =(

Max said...

What a great quote! Now get back to packing, haha...

kateigh said...

Oh so sweet. I'm envious of the relationship you have with your sister (I was raised with all boys). And I'm sure your bond will only grow as the distance between does.
This was so heartfelt and real and I wish you all the best with your courageous adventure.
Love listening to your life stories.

<3

J. said...

You WILL be missed. I would love to get together and have drinks before you leave- are we out of time already?
Love you bunches!

Farah said...

oh gosh that is so sweet! but dont worry dear, your family is as you said just a plane ride and a phone call away. your relationship with them wont change unless you want it too.

Goodluck with packing! ♥

Erin said...

Aren't we lucky to live in the age of email and blogging and skype and cheap long distance? Imagine the days when you would say good-bye to your family and sail across the ocean, likely never to see them again. I can't fathom the kind of sadness that must have created.

You are going to be great, Micaela. A new home will be such a great adventure. Think of the blogging opportunities. We will all love to follow you on your exciting journey, and cheer you on when things are rough. You and your sister will be burning up the phone lines, and you will appreciate everyone and everything so much more when you get to go home on trips.

"Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart." -Confucius

You've got such a full, loving heart, M! I've no doubt you will embrace this adventure with that heart of yours and make the very best of it.

Emilie Lynne said...

Ah, my heart is with you!! Good luck on your move, and email me if you ever want to talk, okay? I am thinking of you!!

Julia said...

I know how you feel, my whole life is packed up in boxes at the moment too! Good luck with everything!

Tiffany said...

Oh my sweet sweet Mickey, you will thrive in VA I'm sure of it.

I know you and your TwinkieSoul will miss each other greatly, but I know that you will both be texting and calling alot as well. Just think of all the fun vacations that Marianne and Philip will be able to have visiting you and Max in VA!!

Best of luck in your bitersweet journey to the man you love...as hard as it will be to leave your beloved Wichita Falls...it will be worth it to sleep in the arms of the man of your dreams every night for the rest of your life.

I love you sweetie and I am only an email, text, or call away if you need anything.

Melissa Y. Allam said...

I love your new print for your new place. It's going to be hard yes, but it's going to be a wonderful new adventure. I wish you the best in your state and home. I love that quote at the end too. Something I so need, because I am taking risks too this year with finally striking it out on my own in my new interior and event design business. Hoping people will want to hire me for my services.

Rasha (andthisiswhatshesaid) said...

its going to be hard... but change is good... you're going to be fabulous, wherever you are :)

The Socialite said...

ahhh! The packing?! The exciting new journey! 2010 will be amazing, trust, I know! :)

p.s. I've MISSED your blog, I've been away too long!

♥Aubrey said...

Awwww...though you may be many a miles apart...you will always be in each other heart.

Have a wonderful new year hun.

mina said...

that beach picture is so dreamy! i always find it difficult to move too.... good luck!

laura marie said...

wow such a beautiful post... i've definitely been there and couldn't have said it better! cherish those last few days but get excited for that next chapter!

Krissa said...

I am so so excited for you...what and amazing way to begin the new year...

and how great that you are so close to your family that the move isnt going to hurt relationships...may even bring you closer together...

exciting!!! change is scary and exhilarating all at the same time!

Nicole Leigh said...

what a great quote!
happy new year and good luck packing! I hope 2010 is magnificent for you!

Camilla Salem said...

i gotta be honest girlie, i am SO excited for this new chapter of your life!!!! i can't wait to read and watch as you enter a very exciting journey :) so happy for you!
happy new year my dear!

jozen said...

awe, micaela, you brought tears to my eyes.

distance makes the heart grow fonder... so I can only imagine how closer you and "twinkie" will be.

Ethan said...

God, I love you, I wish you the best. I hope you find your future on the east coast and the happiness you deserve with it. Good luck my love.

Geisslein said...

Wish you ALL THE BEST! But I know, you will make it great! Big hug from me!

Gracie said...

That quote is great. I hope it all goes well for you. Remember you can write it all down in your journal :) And your blog friends will all be here for you when you need it.

Have a wonderful New Year! x

Fallon said...

Ohh Micaela, you are sooo brave! You will fall into a good pattern in no time I'm sure. You should buy a airplane ticket back home now. Knowing you'll be back for a visit soon might help... at least little...maybe.

Happy New Year Love :)

Jumbleberry Orchard said...

Wishing you the best of luck and love!! The best thing I've learned from living far away from the people I love is that the ones that matter are never far away - you carry them with you everywhere.

Enjoy your adventure!

Saltina said...

I'm excited to read about the new chapter of your life. Thanks for allowing us to be a part of it so far!

brown eyed girl said...

I feel like I should congratulate you on making this big move. It's brave, but I'm so excited for you:). Enjoy your last few days in Texas :)

xox

Megan said...

Goodluck lovely! Think of all the adventures ahead of you and the loving family that will always be with you!

Belen said...

Oh shoot. Yeah, okay, I sent a letter to your Angelina address... Uhhhhh... when exactly do you leave? :/

If anything, they'll put return to sender, right???

Anyway, I'm excited for you. And I can relate. My sister and I are the same about moving apart from each other. We know we can never been more than a few minutes drive away from each other. ♥

Also, I'm so thankful for that quote. I really need to hear it. I'm such a scaredy cat and I'm afraid of risks, so applying for different jobs is hard for me right now. I want out of retail and food and I want a receptionist job of some sort. But I don't give myself much credit and I always feel I'm not up to another company's standards despite what my friends tell me. But we shall see.

Love ya, Micaela! And Happy New Year! ♥

Meg Fee said...

this is such a beautiful post. you're amazing.

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