missing.

i miss my lola in the worse way. :(
c had to come by my work to pick something up and offered to bring her when i told him that.
i started crying. i mean literally at my desk crying.
It was a nice offer, but would be just too heartbreaking to say bye to her again.

sadness hits you in the weirdest moments.
i was dropping marianne off at our friend lauren's house last night and drove past my old neighborhood.

i actually said out loud, "good night lola. Mommy misses you SO much."
out loud.
i just pictured her laying in her spot on her OSU blankie.

then i got home and showered and as i usually do after a shower, put baby gel on my legs.
lola would lick my legs and it would tickle.
i miss that.

i need help. lol
i KNOW how silly this must sound. She's not a child.
but she was my sweet puppy who showed
UNCONDITIONAL love.
dogs always seem to know when you're sad. :(

i miss her barking.
i miss her sleeping next to me.
i miss brushing her.
i miss holding her.

i miss lola.

and i know i'm not the only person who misses their shared pet after a break-up.
there's a lot of you pet people out there! :)

so you know how much this SUCKS.
sigh.

it's friday... i need to get happy.
looking forward to lunch with darling friend- INDIAN FOOD!