Realizations About Myself. Things I should have told you.

i'm spoiled.
i'm hard headed.
i cry during fights and need to make things better before going to sleep.
i can never sleep.

i usually get my way... that it sucks and shocks me when i'm completely wrong about something; mainly someone.

i smile a lot.
i find making eye contact with a total stranger a connection...even if it's only for a few seconds and that's it.

i'm easily jealous.
but can be careless when it comes to my own actions.
i'm hot and cold.

i like wine but only white wines....
i spend way too much money.
i love fashion and want to believe i deserve the finer things in life.
having said that, i will spoil the one i love as much as i can.

i close my eyes and think of italy and quickly stop myself because remembering is too much. but sometimes it gets me through the day.

i love perfume... dior...gucci...polo blue...but my fave is "lovely" by SJP. I wear my Jean Paul on "special occasions" and "princess" is my signature scent--Simply Vera Wang!!!

i was the black sheep of the family--the one who always got in trouble and yet i'm the one the family "takes care of"

i eat way too fast.
i drink way too much.

i don't let go of things...not that easy or if ever.
i try and pray...but don't do it near as often.

i work way too much.
honestly, i'm bored or feel useless otherwise cos i'm so USED to working.

i will never take someone for granted and hate when i feel like i'm being taken for granted. (this goes for friends AND lovers)

i don't think anyone can be trusted 100% though i would love to believe...
because sometimes ignorance IS bliss.
i want the whole "white wedding"
but maybe lover's for life is more my style.
or... what i have been dealt with anyway.

i think/believe "she's every woman" by garth brooks is about me.